An Angel. A Blue Angel, that got inside my life 4 years ago. That shinning eyes soo brilliant, soo happy and gold, to says that loves me,  shinning all the time the happiness to be with me, to be able to give and receive the most deeply affection.          An Angel, that lived all the time clinging in my son Daniel, making him laugh with her tickle and plays. An Angel, that oversee for him, with her huge and giant passion, expelling out from us any kind of sadness, making us smile, in despite of anything.

               I called for her name, and she answered me with slowly meows, always looking for me soo happilly, jumping on my lap and turning her fluffy belly up, in a expression of extreme affection and surrender.  

                An Angel. That took the attention of everyone that looked for her, by the light, by the love, and the life that she irradiated all the time. Everybody wanted her, but there were no money in the world that could take her from me.  

                I call her name............. Julinha...........  JulinhAAAAAAAAAAAa........ Open her eyes for me, sweetie.............  I need you sooo much......... Come back, please, come back to me............. don´t leave me, I can not live without you....................

                I cry loudly and loudly, in the hope that you open your eyes again.......... that you come to look at me as before, always to says that you loves me, that you will never be apart of  me.....  my tears rolls without to stop over your eyes, but it don´t open anymore.... I scream loudly, but you don´t answer me anymore........ my Julinha.......... don´t leave, don´t leave, don´t go.......  

The reason says that you are not in this little fuffly blue body anymore, that you are together with other angels now, together with God..........  but your absence consume my soul, in the deepest sadness............ the death catch hold of my interior, too....... my heart bleed plentifully,  I can not believe that you are dead in my arms....... you seems to sleep, sooo huge is the tranquility in your expression..........  Oh, I would do anything, anything to have you back with me.......... anything.............. Julinha............... my Julinha............... how I wish to give you a part of my life to have you back with me......... but I don´t know how................................ my Julinha.....................

               Never, never, no one will be able to replace you, my love.................. no one never more will look to with those little human eyes, like a person dressed in a custom of blue cat, sooo fluffy........ your long shinning hair, soo soft, always to canoodle us and make us  us   Seus longos pêlos brilhantes, macios, sempre a acariciar-nos e fazer-nos tickle......... Oh, my dear Julinha, my Julinha, the only thought that consoles me it´s the hope and the certainty that one day, God will allows me to be with you again................            

            Forgive me, my love, for we don´t be noticed before that that damned cancer was growing inside you, consuming your health soo quickly.... forgive me for all our efforts to get you stronger was to feed that cursed tumor that took you out from me......... 

                Forgive me, my love, for all the tries to save you have been in vain........ if I could imagine that you would be gone in that surgery of emergency, in that soo cold table, I would have take you to home, and you would have died in my arms with all the love you deserve........ Oh, if I would know that the surgery would be killing you..... if I knew........   

                Forgive me, my love, because I will NEVER, EVER forgive myself for the choices that I did...... 

             Thank you soo very much, my beautiful Blue Angel, for all the happiness that you gave to us, for all your life....... thank you for your beautiful babies,  thank you for Blue Baby, that gave to us soo many happiness............ thank you for the companion, for the friend, for the consoling in the hard moments, for your dedication, for your love................  

              Thank you for coming to console me, even now, waking me at night with your purrrs, embracing  me.... I can feel  clearly your presence, saying me that you continue with me, that you are fine now, free of that tumor playing and running in a beautiful flowered field............

               Thank you, my Julinha, for all that you gave me, for all that you signified  in our lifes................. you will be alive forever, in my dead heart and in my thoughts...... my light has gone with yours, for ever.  My life without you won´t never, never be the same. 

		I love you, sweet heart. I love you sooo very much, soo deeply with all my soul. My Julinha........... my Julinha..............           I will love you forever. You will be always alive inside me.
20/10/1996 ~ 14/11/2000

 
Elaine Jordão & Daniel Jordão    

*** This text was written by Elaine Jordão, with our beloved Julinha, loyalty companion, sincere helper and constant guardian of her son, Daniel Jordão, by that time, a boy with 11 years old. Julinha has developed a cancer with 3 years old and, with extreme dedication, we kept her alive in excellent conditions,  trying to find a very competent professional to remove it. 
Soo many afraid.... and the wrong decision was taken: this very same professional killed her - and propositally. The truth was confessed by herself, 3 months after the Julinha´s death.